here | a poem of sorts

I have found myself
Exactly where I prepared to be
I see where I planted seeds
I know where the harvest will come from

The how really was none of my business
I
I was my business
How I spent my time
What I exemplified

How I show up
How I pour

What I pour

And now I’m here
A spot I always knew I would be

The moment right before

Even if I didn’t know exactly what was after

I knew what before felt like
I knew what before was telling me

I saw the lanes and moments
I saw the watering and fertilizer

I saw the point of everything -

Was me

The unmasked me

The me that showed up saying
I have no idea why I was invited to this space

But my intuition said
Child hush
Go
Be

And I do
I did
I have
I will

Continue

Because here
This

The before
Is so me

The smallest steps
The tiniest breaths

Fill my entire being

More than I’ve ever known
To even dream of

Patience
Trust
Vulnerability

Surrender

is this alignment?
Or is it life with a co-author

Who has no name big enough to contain